Monday, August 30, 2010

Moment of Reckoning - Dig Deep and Find Yourself

Blogging for me has been a channel to let out my frustration, sometimes anger, in a desperate way to rekindle what is deep in my heart. Specific things have happened over the last several weeks. They are facts of life, and everyone experiences them, as we cannot run away from them. My strength besides my love of writing obviously is my wife. She is my whole heart and soul, and I would never want to do anything that she would not want me to do. Lately, I managed to cover my anger by continuing to do what I enjoy the most, and that is to write. My wife is very supportive on most everything I do, but sometimes she thinks that I spend to much time writing. Maybe it could be considered that I'm trying to run away from my fears. Lately we have been apart, mainly because she has elected to work 16 hours a day. She loves to work, and enjoys helping people on her job. Without her, I've found a need to write. I could be one of those husbands who decides to go out with the guys, hit the bars, and stay away from home, but instead I've decided to stay at home, and again, do what I love to do, and that is to write.
But now, I came to a realization that I must break out of this shell and look what is around me, and appreciate what I still have. Maybe the way I've been is not normal. Do I know what really is normal? Maybe it's just the way things were before mom died. Maybe I need to work more. I am hoping that the readers of my blog will understand that I need to cut back in writing at this time. For all of the readers of 'Poems of the Heart', I wanted to thank you again for becoming my friend, and maybe in the future, I'll write again.

Again, I send a big 'thank you' to all of the special people out there.

To my 'Vivacious Wife' Virginia, I love you more than my life. 

Editor James

4 comments:

  1. do what u have to do james. may you and ur wife remain happy together forever.

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  2. Hi James,

    I wish u and your wife all the best to the both of you in your future. And I think that regardless what you do, as long as you enjoy yourself, and spend the time with the precious people in your life, it'll be the best gift in life. All the best :)

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  3. hi James,
    I enjoy reading ur blog very much. I'm wishing u all the best in ur future undertaking. Ur love towards ur wife is awesome..... She is very lucky to hv u..:) Send my regards to ur wife too...take care:)

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  4. My Dearest Sweetheart,

    I love you with all my heart. I am sorry for working a lot of hours. Even I was at worked but I was thinking of you always. Anyway, thanks for the dinner date at Salt Green Restaurant. I enjoyed a lot and I love the foods. I love your surprises and I love you more than anything in this world. You are precious to me sweetheart and know that you are always in my mind and in my heart forever.

    Be the light and continue what you been started by expounding, inspiring so many people's lives and in your free time you can jot down all your thoughts. You are deserving as a writer. I am proud of your dearest husband. I know you are very romantic person.I love you more than my life too. Hugs and kisses from your loving wife Virginia.

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