Blogging for me has been a channel to let out my frustration, sometimes anger, in a desperate way to rekindle what is deep in my heart. Specific things have happened over the last several weeks. They are facts of life, and everyone experiences them, as we cannot run away from them. My strength besides my love of writing obviously is my wife. She is my whole heart and soul, and I would never want to do anything that she would not want me to do. Lately, I managed to cover my anger by continuing to do what I enjoy the most, and that is to write. My wife is very supportive on most everything I do, but sometimes she thinks that I spend to much time writing. Maybe it could be considered that I'm trying to run away from my fears. Lately we have been apart, mainly because she has elected to work 16 hours a day. She loves to work, and enjoys helping people on her job. Without her, I've found a need to write. I could be one of those husbands who decides to go out with the guys, hit the bars, and stay away from home, but instead I've decided to stay at home, and again, do what I love to do, and that is to write.
But now, I came to a realization that I must break out of this shell and look what is around me, and appreciate what I still have. Maybe the way I've been is not normal. Do I know what really is normal? Maybe it's just the way things were before mom died. Maybe I need to work more. I am hoping that the readers of my blog will understand that I need to cut back in writing at this time. For all of the readers of 'Poems of the Heart', I wanted to thank you again for becoming my friend, and maybe in the future, I'll write again.
Again, I send a big 'thank you' to all of the special people out there.
To my 'Vivacious Wife' Virginia, I love you more than my life.