For me, I've lived my life, and it's been a very trying one at times. I don't live for me now, but I live for my wife Virginia, who truly carries my heart and my soul. As late as last week, during the funeral of mom, I lost my voice, and almost not able to speak. But that was just another one of God's tests. I managed through that time, and I believe I have the strength to continue to go on, thanks to the people around me.
Another realization that came to the surface besides the support coming from my wife was the support received from my Aunt Marie and Uncle Marc. My Aunt and Uncle have always been there when I needed support. So has been the support from my other Uncles and Aunts. They could not be at the funeral, but they have always been with me in spirit, through the pain and suffering for the past week.
Death is such a difficult time for the survivors. For all who knew mom, it was a trying time. It was especially difficult for my sister Cindy, but she also knows that now she must live her life without mom. But what happens to be a very well known saying, is actually true. 'She is in a better place now', as for the last several years, mom suffered from Kidney failure and the effects of that, along with Dialisis treatments for 12 hours each week.
There was a constant battle to keep her blood pressure at the proper level, but at the end, it was the lack of sufficient blood pressure that would no longer allow dialisys treatments, which eventually killed her. She lived to be 80, and will always be my personal saint that I want forever in my heart. She may be gone now by the flesh, but somehow I feel her with me always.
Never Alone |
Mom...... I feel you in the morning When at first I awake Your thought is with me With each decision I make You'd been around forever Since the first breath I took Now I have to go on alone But for love, I need not look Cause by what you bestowed In our time on earth together Will last in my heart Forever and ever Although you've left And now walk above I'm never alone I'm wrapped in your love Enjoy now your long waited reward Feel peace that your love continues on What was taught to me, will be taught to mine Cause you live on in me even after you've gone |
I Love it! yah ur not alone.. ur Mother proud of u James, so much beautiful poems here. Thanks for sharing us
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